Melodies:
Kataomoi by Chara
ビバ★ロック～Japanese Side～ by ORANGE RANGE
Princess Charleston by Kanon Wakeshima
Still Doll by Kanon Wakeshima
Suna no Oshiro by Kanon Wakeshima
For You by Azu
Heavenly Days by Aragaki Yui
Dango Daikazoku by Chata
Saya's Joy by Mark Mancina
Saya's Courage by Mark Mancina
Saya's Destiny by Mark Mancina
My Love by Westlife
Ghost Hunt
Kawaranai Mono by Oku Hanako

habitat: 1/6,2/6,3/7, 4/7, band room.
❥Clique: Pamela,Alina, Amethyst, Athena, Brenda, Christalbel, Dorothy, JingRu, Natali, Nicole(really miss you!), Siti,YongWei
❥4/7 Row: Amanda Wee, Bernice, Cheng Siew, Claudia, Kai Wei, Rachel Claire Ming, Suleshna, Wan Ting, Ying Ying + Amanda Joy
❥Trumpet Section: YongWei,Joanne,Lynn, Alicia, Nichola, ShiLi, SuChin, YuFang, Amelia, Hana, Ivie, SiYing, XingXing, Kaarthika, Nicole, Amanda, Chloe, Corvene

HI EVERYONE I THINK I'M CUTE AND I NEED HELP WITH FINDING MY LOST UNDERWEAR. I DUMPED IT SOMEWHERE IN MY HOUSE BUT I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND IT. ANY KIND SOUL WILLING TO HELP OUT??? IT'S BRIGHT PINK AND IT HAS TEDDIES ALL OVER IT. YOUR HELP WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED. MUACKS. Hahaha, that was not for real. i repeat, NOT FOR REAL HOR.
Anyway hi AHBELLY. Why is your blog so so so so dead??? Hehehe hi guess who am i? I shall keep it a secret for now. Anyway, you guys have no idea how much i miss this crazy, nonsensical girl whom i can laugh with for hours without feeling bored or anything. I miss talking about anything to her and she'll just listen to everything i have to say. No words can explain how much i love her okay. She's so lovely in so many ways. And i just want to say that even though school has started for well, 1 month plus? I still miss her a lot a lot a lot a lot and i hope to meet up with her soon , like real soon!!! :-( (AND THAT'S A HINT. You know what to do right!!!) You know who am i ;););) And don't kill me for hacking because you know i love you. <3 And you better love me more for writing this post for you mua Xx back to top?

Oh my, it's been ages since I last updated this blog. Haha it's probably o's fault. I didn't have the mood to blog as life was filled with studying.


I read some of the posts that I typed in the past. & I was like. The heck , did I type all that shit last time???? Haha some were really....assed. As of now, it's 2nd Feb 2012... Time really just zoomed passed me.


Gosh,2 nights ago was the worst night ever in my life. If I ain't wrong, I had food poisoning. Sigh, vomited 4 times, & some even came out from my nose. ~____~  for pete's sake, the pain was damn excruciating. My sister got it too, but hers wasn't that bad as mine. 


& yep, the next day, i had plans to watch 'We not naughty' with Pummyla, Amepok, Guaa & Hamster. (YongtauFOOL was supposed to come but someone uh hem uh hem, i wonder why ah???) I was really worried that i would suddenly puked while i was out. I didn't really wanna cancel on them cuz this was planned quite long ago...was it? Anyway i was really glad to meet them, MY LOVELIES OH MY. LONG TIME NO SEE. I MISS Y'ALL YOU KNOW!? Especially Ame, i haven't seen her since prom... Quite long eh. T^T Oh guess what, it was my 2nd time watching that show, nevertheless, i had fun watching it~ These freaks of mine are such caring friends, they were worried about me cuz i didn't look so well & i wasn't as crazy as i should've been, hahaha. After the movie ended, Pummyla insisted that i should head home. I wanted to follow them the Far East, but i guess she's right, i should head home. All of em gave me advices about what kind of food that i should consume & should not & all, haha imma touched! Thank you so much guys! (: 


GRRR that night i had a quarrel with my dad. He didn't wanna bring me to the doctor & insisted that i should self-medicate. At that point i felt like this:


HAHAHA but i ain't that strong to lift up a vending machine, & not to mention i don't have one at home, hehehe. 


Side track: That guy in the picture is human. The reason behind his brute strength is..well, whenever his blood boils & snaps, his strength just surfaced. If I ain't wrong, anyone can be as strong as him, but our bodies have its limits, so the brain somehow erm, prevents us from doing so? I don't know if this is true, but that would be really cool if it's true!!!! :DDDDDDDDD Look at that, he detached a metal barricade from the ground hahaha. 







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As I can see, my blog is rather dead....like i can see flies circling around it.

Well, this post, as you can see from the title, is kinda my reflection on my own life. Argh, weird i know, but i just decided to do it anyway. SO, bare with me as this is gonna be rather boring. -_-
As boring as any teacher would find themselves being bored to tears when they read your reflections for the year or it being a solution to help them sleep when they can't.

Hm, i kinda started reflecting when this blind young man, together with the organisation he's in (dialogue in the dark or something) came to our school a few days back. or was it yesterday? Never mind. Yeah, & he's blind. But that ain't the worst part. The worst part is that he was born a normal person who could see like any other normal person prior. All of a sudden, he lost his sight at the age of 27 or close. He was accustomed to seeing everything in the world for 27 freaking years, & he lost it just like that. (But to my amazement, he's rather optimistic about life..well, at least to me.) Do you know how painful is that? Not being able to see your parents' faces, or your family's, relatives' & friends' for as long as he lives? Well, no one does, neither do i. In exception of those who are on the same boat as him.

At that moment, i realised how much advantage i had taken on all those blessings & the daily routines that i've been going through. Such as, thinking that the water & food supply will go on forever. Or the fact that electricity is gonna be here for centuries. Finding walking home from the bus stop rather boring & tiring, or in fact, whatever usual things that we do boring; brushing your teeth, bathing, eating, walking, running, talking & the list goes on.

Did you know that all these count as a blessing?

Cuz, those disabled people out there are unable to do those things that we humans normally do. Some can't walk, talk, eat by themselves, bathe by themselves, gotta depend on other senses to navigate themselves around cuz their sight do not help them anymore etcetera.

Life sure is short. For all i know, the very next day, my existence might be eradicated from his world. Sigh. It is definitely blessed to know that i managed to wake up the next morning,every morning to see my love ones & friends.

I can't believe that i complained & wallowed in self pity about having eczema.
'Why am i always feeling so itchy?'
'Why can't i have normal skin like others?'
'Taking care of it is so darn troublesome.'
When i compare myself to others who are in a worst plight than i am, i feel like a freak.

Yeah, a freak.

On a side note, i'm rather shocked, & kinda touched when Mdm Khaw & Mr Ng actually questioned about my health(basically eczema) & asked what are the triggers & so on. Like, i never knew she was that caring. From what i see, she's always behaving like some ah beng & he's always...talking about his funny life. Ahaha. But i guess i shouldn't be surprised, cuz the themselves have children of their own.

So folks, start counting your blessings with a help of a calculator(it is recommended to use it) , stop whining about what you don't have.

Ps. this is just what i think; it's my reflection anyway. If you don't agree, go ahead. But keep your mouth shut & don't bother debating. I advise that you save your breath. (: back to top?

What the hell, Xing sent me the SYF rehearsal mp3 files but MY COM CAN'T OPEN IT. DAMNNN. WHY CAN'T APPLE COMPUTERS READ WMA FORMAT!? !)&~!#!(_&^#!@?!?!*)(

Speaking of syf.... i'm like speechless. First of all, MIS-PITCHING. I admit that i did that too, but i didn't make as many mistakes. If you can't play everything perfectly, just let go of one of your part. I've this feeling that people thought that i was the one mis-pitching at the rehearsal, because i'm always the one who mis-pitches during practices.  By the way, please DON'T practise SO MUCH before SYF. you practiced too much before the rehearsal, which is one of the reason why YOU COULDN'T PLAY PROPERLY!  Uhm, HELLO, have some common sense please?

Bar 72 sucks man. So out of tune. I've to practise more on coming in in piano.

SIGH, can i just write " i'M SPEECHLESS" for the reflection??? I really have nothing to write about the rehearsal. & of cuz, i can't be bothered either. back to top?

POO, it's been a thousand years since i've updated man.. Sushi asked me why is my blog so so dead. HAHA so i guess i shall update for you ok! Though maybe it doesn't really interest you, but yeah. Anyway,  i really had no time or i was just too tired to do anything. I guess now i know how Sucai felt last year. :O Oh gosh, my schedule is like &&)&_^$&*)~*_##^$ !!! Check it out.

Monday: poa tuition.
Tuesday: band
wednesday: chinese tuition
thursday: band
friday: poa tuition
saturday: band, church
sunday: science & maths tuition.

I'm just gonna die. I LOVE BAND but it really can be tiring at times. Especially when there's sectionals. Y'know, the bringing of stands, instruments and stands to and fro from the band room and classrooms... i really hate that part. OMG. Takes really lots of energy. i rather run 2.4km ok.

Today, they announced the result of those who got into SYF. Sigh, though i got in, i still feel sad for some who didn't get in. oh well. Speaking of SYF, many of my classmates and sec5 friends opted out from SYF. Reason? Their cca standards deteriorated drastically(no hope to achieve gold), so they find it a waste of time to train hard, and rather use that time to study. This is something that i have to agree, but i don't find it a waste of time though. That's because i find all the practices really enjoyable. Hee, i'm so in love with my Trumpet, i just can't bear to part from it. ):

Sigh, things really changed as time passed. I really wanna achieve that Gold award, but seriously, do you think that we can make it with that kinda standard? Yes, there is some improvement, but definitely not enough. For the previous SYF, we were more hard working, took every single practices seriously, and even had additional sectionals which was not during band time. Eh look at us now, sectionals became such a slack, people skipping band when they feel like it, and no one bothers about having an additional practice. Like within half an hour of sectionals, we only practiced for 5 minutes, while the other 25 minutes was for talking. We had soooo many section talks, but nothing ever changed. I really can't stand all this shit anymore. You guys, come and tell me how to achieve that awesome result with all these bullshit!? CUT ME SOME SLACK MAN! Let me tell you this, if the seniors were still here, SOME of you would be immediately out of SYF. Hello, please wake up alright? SYF is not next year, but in 2 MONTHS time. This is seriously not a joke.

If we achieved a Silver or lower, I don't think I'd cry. It's expected.

I'm sorry, i know it's really offensive, but this is a fact. I don't hate you guys ok.


Haiz, you stole my part, i really hate you for life man. You think you very cool is it, play first for both + solo. you better don't play the wrong pitch due to tiredness, because you said that you can manage it. GOLD AH, GOLD. KEEP THAT IN MIND.

& my poor stm kiddo also. sigh. stolen part. that feeling sucks. i wonder how she feels. hmm.

Tsk, who on earth can get over this man? I ain't any sort of leader, someone useful or smart, so i thought i finally found something that i can make people acknowledge my existence or show that i ain't any useless piece of shit. But now? i guess i should be a useless freak for all my life.

Sometimes, i envy the past sec5 seniors because the teachers and conductors always share something different with them. But now? it seems that they don't even care. Ms wee only cares about me handing in homework. what the fuck?

i really don't know la. i am so fucking pissed off now. Can't continue anymore. Bye freaks.

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VRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!

Oh my, it's been a gazillion years since i updated, tsk. Just didn't have that motivation to blog.
OHOH SCHOOL STARTED!!! :D ( *screams in anger inside*) ok lame.

Anyway, I've moved on to 5/1, but my mind still stays in 4/7.  Same for many others, they've moved on to the 2011 classes, but mind remains in 2010 classes.

Minor Case No.1: on the 1st day of school, they announced which class had which form teacher and tutor. So when they announced 4/7's teachers, i was thinking' wth, what kinda shitty kinda teachers are those!? i thought kai wei & cheng siew said that our teachers were mdm khaw & mr ng!?'

Minor Case No.2 : oh and i wrote my class as '4/7' on my camp booklet. -.- WanTing's the best, she wrote '5/7'.

Major case No.1: 5/3's the best. Mr Anthony was dismissing the school, so he called 5/3 but no one stood up. He glared at them and raised his voice,' last year 4/9, this year 5/3, you don't know is it!?' HAHAH 5/3 looked kinda shocked and had that blur look.

Minor Case No.3: Mr Anthony was announcing which classes get to sit at the gallery. He said 2 or 3 classes of sec4s, and finally 5/2. I overheard Ganbel saying,' IS THAT OUR CLASS? Eh no. Eh Yes!'

Minor Case No.4: Pam says to her classmate," Eh our class 4/8 bla bla bla." Classmate stared at her. Pam, 'WHAT?'

MUAHAHAHAHA i can't help but feel such a big shot in the school now, since we're the oldest, hoho. We can mess with anyone, hohoho. Kay, that was just a joke.

I think everyone's new year resolution for 2011 is to have bangs...-.- It's like quite annoying to see, cuz some people just don't look good with it at all. But some really look good with it. Sigh, bangs was suppose to be uncommon, but now...WHATEVER, EVERYONE COPYCAT ME. HAHAHA ok lame.

AND FREAK DID I MENTION THAT CAMP IS LIKE SUPER BORING!? HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE TIL 1700 HOURS FOR 2 MORE DAYS!? WHAT THE FISH NUGGETS MAN!!

BEST EVER SOLUTION: SKIP.

LIKE I'M ALLOWED TO.

CAN'T WAIT FOR SATURDAY, GOING OUT WITH PAMO AND NIC CHIA, THE LONG 'LOST' FRIEND WHOM MIGRATED TO ADELAIDE!!! :D :D :D back to top?

I wanna you to know that I love you like there ain't tomorrow (but not in the wrong way)
I wanna you to know that you're one in a million.
I wanna you to know that I miss laughing with you.
I wanna you to know that I miss hanging out with you and doing all sorts of crap.
I wanna you to know that I miss shouting & screaming at the top of our voices.
I wanna you to know many things that all these while, I've so many things to say.

I'd love lending you my ears when you need one. Cuz I know that even though you're such a happy-go-lucky in front of many, inside, you're screaming for help.

I really want to be the one that can always be at your side, helping you, caring for you and spending many happy moments together. But it is rather difficult, as you know, we ain't in the same class and the stupid moron tan /b lim put our classes on different levels.

It is not that I hate the clique or don't give a damn about it anymore, it's just that, everything changed within the clique and it doesn't feel homely as before. Some members separated from us, while new ones joined in. It's a cycle, and i don't really like it.

Just so you know, to me, the friendship between us has not been loosen by one bit. I hope that you'll understand why I did this & that... (: Sorry about many confusions here & there.


Cuz I've never forgotten what we did together, the times spent, and most importantly, you. (: back to top?